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To emphasize the point I am making, let us see if this mantra is suiting for you:
Cock is my only desire, for I am a cock sucker!
Dick is what I crave, as I am a faggot!
Penis makes me excited and I feel drawn to sucking on penis, so I am gay!
Now, let us see what these phrases resonate in you. Next thing to do is to recognize your cocks reaction to watching a dick worshipping brainwash video.
And once you are feeling a certain reaction I would love to know about what it was.
Finally, tell me what you are craving to do, beta. Is it cock that you desire now. The feeling of that big black cock in your mouth?